Carry on Regardless...

This past weekend I went to a yoga training session in Pensacola, FL. I got up at 4 A.M. or something ridiculous like that to make it there on time. Usually when I travel around this area, the GPS tends to take me on some one lane country highways. During the day, I love these scenic routes, I find them relaxing. When it's still dark outside, it's another story. There are so many deer just standing up at the side of the road looking at you. On the way there, I flipped through some radio stations, settling on something that I felt was upbeat and helpful for keeping me awake. As I start to sing the words, "ah, ha, ha, ha stayin' alive" looking out at the several sets of glowing eyes along the highway, I laugh at the irony. As if that wasn't bad enough, I drove home from Pensacola in the dark as well. I kid you not, the song "Stayin' Alive" came on again and there were just as many if not more deer.

In a reminiscent moment, Michael Bolton's "Said I Loved You but I Lied" was played. I was transported back to childhood in my mother's Ford Topaz when nothing could have separated her from her Michael Bolton cassette tape.

I am feeling a little less than inspired this morning.

1. We have no coffee creamer. There is 1% milk in my coffee and it is nothing short of awful. I sprinkled some cinnamon on top. Now I have cinnamon on top of awful.

2. I am worried about the success of this class I am teaching at 5 in the morning.

The class is early, intended to be a PT option. I have been lucky enough to have two people show up the first day and three show up today. The two mornings I have arrived, I have been a nervous wreck until I've seen some faces. I have been practicing and praying for this opportunity to come along. I just want to make it something good. We don't get a full hour, but I do feel blessed to have the time in there at all. It's just one of those things that I built up in my mind and looked so forward to, and now that it's here, it's not what I thought it would be. It's probably another exercise in patience, another lesson in humility.

Haven't you ever felt like that? I am sure you have. You have all this energy and excitement behind an idea, and it just falls a little bit short of the grand scenario in your head. I guess the most important part is how you carry yourself moving forward. Maybe it's a morning for some Van Morrison "Carry on Regardless".